It’s one thing to be upset when you got a bad review at work. It’s another to have a complete meltdown over the same situation.

Here, we’re talking about the latter. The seemingly uncontrollable chaos that even left you questioning “What happened to me?”

Often we experience these episodes, but we have no idea what the cause is or even where to look for the solutions. Here, I’ll mention one of the possibilities for this meltdown.

One of the reasons is this -

You are using the excellence of your work performance to control your anxiety.

For some of us, because of the hardships we had in the past, we try to use other avenues to give to us “control” over those vulnerabilities. One of ways might be “If I have total control over my work, I won’t have to ever be in a vulnerable again.”

I know this statement might even be seemingly illogical, because your work now has absolutely no impact on protecting your vulnerabilities. However, this is how the brain protects itself.

The brain, after the trauma, fabricates a story for the person to believe, so the person can protect himself or herself after the event. For the person, the actual trauma is not dealt with, which causes more and more episodes of breakdown due to the false sense of control.

What To Do Now?

For this kind of situation to happen, I highly recommend seeing a therapist due to the severity of the case. Trying to do anything yourself might worsen the condition.